I've struggled with binge eating and starvation for almost 7 years. I created this blog 5 years ago with the intent to motivate myself to starve even more. I was completely brainwashed. My ED controlled every aspect of my life. It was affecting my social life, my education and my relationship with my family. On November 13, 2012 I woke up and realized I deserved better and asked my school counselor for help. It wasn't easy at first. When I was getting counseling at times I thought what the hell am I doing, this is not right. I was so obsessed with my disorder that I saw it as a person and whenever my counselor tried to give me advice I received that as her attacking it. I felt like my ED as a "human form" was the only thing on my side, that was comforting me. One day I knew I had to let go because my disorder was damaging me physically and mentally and so I did. Now I'm learning not to see food as my enemy. I'm learning to not see food as numbers. I'm learning how to build a healthy relationship with food and fitness. It's been a long, tough, and exhausting journey, but it's worth it in the end. If you are struggling with an eating disorder, don't hesistate to message me xo