Relaxing by the lake on this hot-as-hell day ☀⚓
I've struggled with binge eating and starvation for almost 7 years. I created this blog 5 years ago with the intent to motivate myself to starve even more. I was completely brainwashed. My ED controlled every aspect of my life. It was affecting my social life, my education and my relationship with my family. On November 13, 2012 I woke up and realized I deserved better and asked my school counselor for help. It wasn't easy at first. When I was getting counseling at times I thought what the hell am I doing, this is not right. I was so obsessed with my disorder that I saw it as a person and whenever my counselor tried to give me advice I received that as her attacking it. I felt like my ED as a "human form" was the only thing on my side, that was comforting me. One day I knew I had to let go because my disorder was damaging me physically and mentally and so I did. Now I'm learning not to see food as my enemy. I'm learning to not see food as numbers. I'm learning how to build a healthy relationship with food and fitness. It's been a long, tough, and exhausting journey, but it's worth it in the end. If you are struggling with an eating disorder, don't hesistate to message me xo
Relaxing by the lake on this hot-as-hell day ☀⚓